Dear and beloved LittleWhitey's community,As of today, monday the 13th of June 2011, I announce my official resignation. I have decided to leave my position as a moderator but most of all as a player in LittleWhitey's San Andreas server.
It is because I consider the community valuable and worth to be taken seriously that I take the time to write this. With that said, I do not expect all of you to be waiting for this announcement and consider me or the letter worthy of your time. Fact of the matter is, I met new people here which I kept in touch with and I feel connected and regular enough to state my farewell.
My position as a moderatorBecause I've had responsibility towards others as a moderator, I think I should explain my actions and behaviour in general.
First of all, I had the honor of being promoted on the 7th of January 2010.
Back then I was pretty active (especially during nighthours) and I tried my best to keep justice as I was responsible. These were my maintasks in general:
-Checkin' reports as soon as one was made
-Observe to see what's going on
-Kicking and warning rulebreakers
-Reporting a cheater to the admins to get him banned
Secondly I should state I was 'thrown' into the moderatorposition rather than really deciding to be one, in the end I did accept and welcome the position though. The reason I had my doubts of becoming one was because of the above stated tasks, as a regular player I was quite aware of the responsibilities you have as a staffmember. Everytime a race (which I loved) was hosted an admin had to be there to see if everything was going alright or couldn't even race himself because a task came up while participating. Next to that, I saw the numerous amount of people that didn't want to think for theirself and in effect asked about every single, small, easy to figure out situation. Third, I could imagine the people complaining about my firetruckactivities as an admin and relate my behaviour to my 'status'. Lastly I saw that a lot of admins had knowledge of the game that I did not have, which I would have to learn in order to find myself worthy of being one (if I had that ambition).
All of the above expectations were true, and the element of having fun became smaller for me personally which I was afraid of. That does not mean becoming a staffmember is only a lot of 'annoying' things to deal with it, I also got appreciation for what I did and new 'abilities' I couldn't see as a regular. These abilities I can't state but I can guarantee it's not made to have the advantage over the regular, just as I can guarantee I've not used any of my powers to do so.
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Later on I just got used to being one and didn't take it as serious anymore as I did at the start, sometimes I picked finishing a race over a report (which is not how it's supposed to be done). Such small things made me feel pretty bad as a moderator but as a person too (I have a high feeling of responsibility), as time stretched I just felt like being stuck with the whole status and didn't know what to do with it anymore. I can honestly state that the last couple of months, the times I was on the server, I didn't do much as a moderator and was not always responding to reports.
Desire for powerTo all those players that always complain about no admins being around during certain times of the day and picking new ones, or/and offering theirself to become one and being rejected. Think of what I wrote about the responsibilities you'll have, the most common reason (in my eyes) that people don't get picked is because they put ability over responsibilty. The amount of asskissers was also big when I became a moderator and those are the exact people that don't understand what it actually means, blinded by status and power. You got to be able to judge objectively, have knowledge of the game and feeling of responsibility.
I did not find myself to have enough knowledge of the game, nor was I motivated enough to learn which is why I would not let myself be promoted to admin.
/Q in generalLike I said I won't be playing in general anymore either. I don't owe anyone here too much explaination about this matter which is why I'll say it abstractly.
Circumstances for me and my family are getting tougher day by day and has its effects on all of us, as a 'young man' I must try to make a difference and can't afford to play videogames anymore. This has been goin' on for a while and after a conversation I had today I decided to leave. I have stated it as timeout cause I basically crashed due circumstances and need to recover. I know for certain that I won't be your 'back-in-2-weeks' type of guy which is why I still made this topic.
Forumactivity?I've been more active over the forum the last months than in game, but my goal is to leave the forum for what it is as well, as I don't want to become more of an off-topic poster than I already am. I'll try to keep this limited. As a humanbeing I must admit to be curious enough to see what other people have to say (about me), therefor I'll return various times in the beginning to check what's said and reply if necessary.
Y'all appreciatedTo close this chapter I'll have to say thanks to each and every one of you that I've played and talked with. Every fool that blew up my truck, let me ride on top of his car, let me drive as a passenger, showed me the basics, fought with me on the concrete streets, fought me with fists, fought me with a bat, helped me with my pc-building, fought me while being on ventrilo/teamspeak, joined me on ventrilo/teamspeak in general, flamed me and got into my collection of screenshots, lend me money, stole my money, answered my quizquestions, played transformice with me, abused me, accused me, ganged up on me, invited me to his/her gang, got styled upon and just was aside me in general, I thank you.
I hope LittleWhitey's server will keep existin' and stands strong through the future, much respect to the ones behind the screens making it possible for others to play.
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Every morning in Africa a gazelle wakes up and knows that it must run faster than the fastest lion or it will be killed.
Every morning a lion wakes up and knows that it must run faster than the slowest gazelle or it will starve to death.
It doesn’t matter whether you are the lion or the gazelle, when the sun comes up, you better start running."U gotta wake up, when you hear the roosterhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zySf5Bf3fzQ
